"The fate of the woman, who played Christiane F." from June 2001

BZamsonntag: you know Mrs. Brunckhorst, how it goes the real Christiane F.?
No, I don't know. No one hears anything of her. I hope that she is well. I am afraid only that she is not.

Would you have the desire to meet her?
Hmmmm .. difficult question. I do not know. It would depend. Because so far it is not essential that, coming to terms with the past, I must do that. Everyone must lead their own life.

Do you really want to be reminded of Christiane F.?
It is amazing, as it sticks so much to me. I have played, since then, quite different roles. And nowadays I predominantly write film scripts. Shortly I will try my first co-directors role.

Is your life as an actress in the past?
For the time being, yes. I could never be filmed easily, I am not especially happy being in the spotlight. That never satisfied me completely. With writing I am luckier.

Isn't that (writing) a very lonely job?
No, I have sufficient friends, and also my daughter. And while I'm writing I am not alone, but with my characters.

Today, do you have your illness completely behind you? (Natja had cancer)
There is no guarantee. For nobody there is that. But there is a half-life, where one says, now comes nothing more. I have it all behind me.

How did the illness change you?
I know now, what is important in life. I don't worry anymore over little things like bad weather. And I waste no more time. I decide what I want, and do it.

How is your contact to Dominic Raacke today? (he is the father of Natja's child)
Well, we live both in Munich, to make our daughter happy. He did that when I was so ill, without question, which many men would not do.

Is there a new man in your life?
Yes. There is. I would however not like to say, who it is. Only so much: He lives in Berlin.

Then you come perhaps soon back to the Spree? (ie; Back to Berlin)
Perhaps. But, when I am in Berlin, I always want to leave again. Maybe thats why I live in Munich. Because when I lived in Berlin was during the time when I was very famous. Maybe I will return there when I am old.

What do you think, if you pass Zoo Station?
That is quite an amusing feeling. It feels as if I'm pageing through a family album, with photos from quite different times.

footnote - Natja's latest script is for the new film "Wie Feuer und Flamme", the story of a west girl, who falls in love with an east Punk.

this article taken from BZ-Berlin June 10 2001. article written by Martina Hafner. translated from german with babelfish.